still dumb...

i just read over my last entry... and i was lucky with 6 hours of sleep... last night it was 5... but it was well worth it...

even though i was a zombie today... and i realized at lunch that i hadn't really eaten meat in a few days... and i wondered if that added to my weariness... i felt ravenously hungry... 

and now i'm up late again... i've been on the phone, sharing stories and living life... 

i'm really glad that tomorrow is thursday and that thursday is next to friday... 

i have to get some sleep... 

We sleep around here. Okay, we like it. It makes us pretty and keeps us from killing our crazy friends.

i need sleep... in fact, i should have been in bed 2 hours ago... i should plan on a full 8 hours every night... i should not stay up and do teenager-ish or college-ish behavior-type things... and yet, i don't always do the things i should do... where is the fun in that?

so instead of going to bed at 10-something, i called a friend... i needed to get out of my apartment... i didn't want to sit at home and i didn't want to be left alone with me... and i convinced my friend to go hang out with me... i ate food that is not good for me too late in the night... i know it's bad for me... i know that eating after 9:00 (is it 9, still?) is bad... at least i drank water... and i did blame part of it on the fact that i didn't really have dinner and i was told to eat good meals and drink a lot of water because i'm giving blood tomorrow (or at least attempting)... 

but none of that is really the point... 

i love that right now i can do ridiculous things like go eat breakfast at 10:00 p.m. i like that i have other friends (who are mostly younger than me) who will put up with my whims and actually meet me for breakfast at 10:00 p.m. i know this will not always be the norm in my life... i know that someday, and to be honest, it's most days already, i will not have the desire to go eat breakfast at crazy hours... i mean, when i was in college, 10 was early... i know that eventually, all my friends will be married and will no longer have time to go out on a whim... maybe i will even be in that situation someday...

i guess the thing i am realizing the older i get and the faster time passes is that it's important to stop and embrace life before it slips out of our hands... 

tonight i was thankful for conversations about life and grandmas and theology and well, even boys... all over some runny eggs... for the fact that it was both a possibility and a reality...

but for now, i need sleep... i don't know that i'll get quite enough to make me "pretty" but if i don't get to bed now, i'll be fighting with the inevitable "opposite of pretty" in the morning - both physical and emotional... and i don't want to kill my crazy friends tomorrow... so 6 hours of sleep, maybe 6 and a half will just have to do... 

it's about time...

so i FINALLY got a mac!! i love it! 

i also love being able to pick up the wireless network from the hotel across the street... even if i do have to lay on the floor between my living room and office to pick it up... i don't mind so much!!!

lately i've been intrigued by the show jon and kate plus eight - it makes my blood pressure rise every time i watch it... too many kids and crazy and crazy... there is something to be said for her organizational skills... i can't imagine trying to manage their household... so i guess it's good that it is their life and not mine...

life is good... work is good... i feel like there are a lot of possibilities, but i'm not sure how it's all going to work out... so i'm just taking life one day at a time and making it work... 

so that's it...

there is a jon and kate plus eight marathon on... gotta go... may need some meds later, though... 

the girl with one brown shoe...

so this morning was a bit crazy... i woke up late (staying up late is a huge problem for me)... and i couldn't find my keys when i needed to find my keys... (i had to go through the whole process of thinking about where i had them last... i came home from work and probably put them on the kitchen counter... not there... not on the desk or the bar between the kitchen and office... oh, that's right, i went and got cds out of the car... maybe they're by my cds... nope, underneath the cds...) see how crazy my mind is?

in light of all of that, i was rushing around... and i quickly slipped my left foot into my cute little round-toed black heel... and then slipped my foot into my other little round-toed black heel, or so i thought...

i leave for work, clomp down the stairs (i still haven't mastered walking down stairs in heels)... hop (literally) into my car and leave for work... hit the red lights, get caught up in traffic due to a wreck... all that...

i pull up to the building 10 minutes late, but in enough time to be on time for departmental prayer... as i'm getting out of my car, i look down and realize i'm not wearing the right cute little round-toed black heel, but the cute little pointy-toed brown heel instead!!

too late to go home and change... and after waiting on the elevator for too long, i ended up being late to departmental prayer... not so good for the first week...

and with mismatched shoes, to boot (man, i'm glad i didn't mistake a boot for my black heel... that would have been REALLY embarassing!!!)

i'm pretty sure this was the first time this has happened... i only told a few people and i don't know if anyone else noticed... if they did, they didn't say anything... at least to my face...

dang. i'm probably like the "special" girl at work now...

i don't like mornings!!!

you might as well live.

i got the best package in the mail yesterday... there is something so amazing about walking up to my front door and seeing a big white or yellow envelope smushed between the glass door and the regular door... it's happened twice in the last two weeks...

this time it was a fun envelope of goodness from my dear friend who lives in texas... a mixtape and another cd with over the rhine songs... and a few other little goodies... she might be the most creative person i have ever known...

here are some things that are going on with me...

1) it's raining outside (rain, not men)... kind of a nasty day, but sometimes i just like those...

2) today is my last day of work at heritage... monday i start a new job with new opportunities and new challenges... i'm really excited about it... i'm hanging up my professional graphic designer/artist jersey and going to the less creative, more logical side of a career... i'll be a process coordinator in the donor relations department at familylife... don't know what that is? i don't either... it's something to do with lots of copy editing and details and deadlines... a few things i'm good at, in addition to being creative every now and then... here's a secret about me... i love excel spreadsheets... and using 10-key... sincerely...

3) i won tickets on the radio yesterday morning to go see brian regan... i have never seen him, but i have heard REALLY good things about him... i knew that he was coming and even contemplating going when i would have to buy a ticket... then i won 2... so i'm trying to figure out who to take with me... plus, i won tickets on the radio!!! it makes me think of the guy in one crazy summer who tries to win something on the radio... and he sits in that crazy room... i just called twice - once it was busy, then i was caller #9...

4) i've gotten in the habit of staying up REALLY late and it's not a good thing... why i was up until 2 a.m. watching romy and michelle's high school reunion last night or 2 a.m. watching kate and leopold is beyond me... maybe having a tv in my room is a bad thing!

5) i feel a good list has 5 things... so... my friend wende is coming in town to visit this weekend... i am excited to see my friend and to have house-guests... but i'm also not used to sharing my space... i have more cleaning to do... ugh...

oh - and tomorrow i have the day off... hooray for a 3-day weekend!!!

april is looking pretty good right about now!

And now the times are changin', Look at everything that's come and gone... those were the best days of my life...

every now and then, a friend comes along... and the word "friendship" doesn't quite begin to define the relationship... it's more than friendship... it's a kindred-spirit kind of relationship... and time can change it, but never kill it... there's something comforting about knowing that regardless of how much time passes that we will always be friends... and we will always have fun...

and somehow, the fun just gets better and better...

i really didn't know i could have that much fun on a monday night...

now if only we lived in the same town...

they say it's your birthday... well, it's my birthday, too...

i love birthdays... sometimes i forget how much i love them... but i do...

except for the rain that was only bad when i decided to walk out from underneath the shelter of the upstairs landing and put a huge damper on the time spent actually fixing my hair this morning... it has been a spectacular day and it's only 9:42... i won't let rain get me down...

and last night wasn't bad either...

here are the thank yous so far:

1) thank you, hot stranger, for wishing me happy birthday last night... for being observant and overhearing my conversations...

2) thank you, starbucks friends, for throwing me a party this morning including cake AND candles... you don't know how much you mean to me... seeing you in the mornings is the highlight of my day...

3) thank you, wende jackson, for calling me right at 12:00 a.m. to sing happy birthday to me...

4) thank you, alyssa sellers, for my favorite birthday card ever...

5) thank you, countless others, for comments and messages and cards and presents...

i've kind of decided 28 is going to be the best year... i have never felt such love and warmth and friendship by so many people all at once as i do here... and today...